As 2017 drew to an end, I found myself very reflective on the decisions I had made that year. 2017 was a tough year, yet it was also the year when I truly felt like I was taking control of my life, and what I wanted to do with it.
In February 2017, I handed in my notice working for the NHS. Why? I dreaded work. I mean, I absolutely hated work. I would wish the week by. I hated Sundays because I knew it meant work the next day, so I only enjoyed Friday evenings and Saturdays. Also, a couple of months prior, just before Christmas, my dad was diagnosed with Cancer. It finally dawned on me. Why the bloody hell was I wasting my life like this? Yes, I had bills to pay, but there is no set way to earn money. No one was forcing to work a job I disliked, yet I had been there for over a year. So I handed in my notice.
My boyfriend and I run a small ebay business, which we built up along side our full-time jobs. We made the decision that I would focus on the business and use that as my income.
Leaving my job in the NHS was scary. I knew I would have to take a dip in wage, but I didn’t care. My mental health and my happiness was the most important. I never considered myself to be business-minded, let alone that I would ever co-own a business. I wouldn’t overly consider myself business-minded now. What I do know, is that I knew I needed money to be able to leave my job in the NHS, so we put in all the hours we could on the business, so that we had another avenue, another potential long-term career.
I got sick of living my life a certain way, so I took the leap and changed it. And I’ll tell you what, it is the best decision I ever made. I control my money, my hours, my holiday. I don’t have to worry about phoning in sick. I genuinely feel like I finally listened to myself. The one person I should always listen to first.
I am not saying that everyone should be self-employed. What I am saying is that sometimes it is important to stop, take a minute and really look at your life. Are you happy in your job? In your relationship? Your home? Are you happy with who you are as a person? If you aren’t happy, then change it. It is your life, so make it the best you can. My biggest fear is looking back when I’m grey and old and having regrets. What if? I don’t want to look back and think of situations where I knew I was unhappy, but didn’t do anything about it, or missed opportunities, because I was scared.
What I am trying to say is, if something you want to do scares you, then you should probably do it. I think a lot of people would agree when I say that I have felt the most rewarded when I have done something I was scared to do. People will always have an opinion, but just put yourself first for a second.
Just go and live your happiest life and be the best version of you that you possibly can be. We only have one chance at this life.
Ever taken a step outside your comfort zone? Completely changed careers? I would love to know your stories!